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This is my not-quite-annual "OMG, why do I do this to myself?" whinge.
I signed up for Yuletide, and got my match. Unlike many other years, I was totally unfamiliar with three of the four fandoms, but (of course) the last one was a fandom I'd offered. I came up with a vague idea for a story, and fleshed it out by doing story noodling with Pat WINOLJ. And there things sat for way too long.
I decided I really wasn't happy with what I had in mind, and hadn't put any words to the virtual page, and I'd be better off defaulting. Except that, when I checked, I had misremembered the safe default date, and it had already passed.
So I had to write the damned story to keep in good standing with Yuletide. I buckled down over the weekend, and last night, I finished it. I sent it off to Pat with a note saying that I was at the "I hate this story and everything about it" stage.
Today at the gym, she had a number of suggestions how to tweak things to improve it, but reassured me that it was a coherent story that worked for her. Which was a great relief. I'll want to do one more edit after she sends me her emailed comments, but in the meantime I've uploaded the current version of the story, because the deadline is imminent (sometime tonight). Thankfully, it's fine to keep tweaking things up to the point where the archive goes live.
I had such good intentions for this year. I was going to get the story done early so I didn't have to worry about things. And maybe even pick up a pinch-hit. Ha bloody ha. I wish I could figure out a way to deal with my decades-old procrastinatory tendencies. I do sometimes wonder about my executive function issues. But at least I know it's nothing new.
And right now I'm in a small bout of "yes, it needs an edit, but thank Ghu it's done" euphoria, and I can actually start to look forward to reading from this year's batch of stories.
I signed up for Yuletide, and got my match. Unlike many other years, I was totally unfamiliar with three of the four fandoms, but (of course) the last one was a fandom I'd offered. I came up with a vague idea for a story, and fleshed it out by doing story noodling with Pat WINOLJ. And there things sat for way too long.
I decided I really wasn't happy with what I had in mind, and hadn't put any words to the virtual page, and I'd be better off defaulting. Except that, when I checked, I had misremembered the safe default date, and it had already passed.
So I had to write the damned story to keep in good standing with Yuletide. I buckled down over the weekend, and last night, I finished it. I sent it off to Pat with a note saying that I was at the "I hate this story and everything about it" stage.
Today at the gym, she had a number of suggestions how to tweak things to improve it, but reassured me that it was a coherent story that worked for her. Which was a great relief. I'll want to do one more edit after she sends me her emailed comments, but in the meantime I've uploaded the current version of the story, because the deadline is imminent (sometime tonight). Thankfully, it's fine to keep tweaking things up to the point where the archive goes live.
I had such good intentions for this year. I was going to get the story done early so I didn't have to worry about things. And maybe even pick up a pinch-hit. Ha bloody ha. I wish I could figure out a way to deal with my decades-old procrastinatory tendencies. I do sometimes wonder about my executive function issues. But at least I know it's nothing new.
And right now I'm in a small bout of "yes, it needs an edit, but thank Ghu it's done" euphoria, and I can actually start to look forward to reading from this year's batch of stories.
