I hate procrastination
Feb. 11th, 2007 09:48 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
carbonelEspecially when I'm the one doing the procrastination.
I spent today working on a project that I really ought to have finished a month or two ago. It's not quite done, but the end is now within sight. I've made things difficult for some other people by waiting so long, and I might have hurt myself as well.
I wish I knew why I do this. I've been putting the project off one day at a time for way too long, and feeling guilty about it. It's not a time management issue as much as a sheer avoidance thing. This, despite the fact the the project, while being a fair amount of work, was still enjoyable work.
The weird thing is that I don't have this problem in my work life. I work at home and my boss trusts me to do my job. And I do. I coordinate my projects and prioritize them with minimal difficulty. But in my personal life, it's as if I just don't have the discipline to buckle down and do what I should.
I can't even blame it on depression. The meds are working well enough that I feel pretty good most of the time. Except, of course, for feeling guilty because of all the things I should be doing and and am not doing. I hate that feeling, so why don't I avoid it by doing what I ought to?
I dunno.
I spent today working on a project that I really ought to have finished a month or two ago. It's not quite done, but the end is now within sight. I've made things difficult for some other people by waiting so long, and I might have hurt myself as well.
I wish I knew why I do this. I've been putting the project off one day at a time for way too long, and feeling guilty about it. It's not a time management issue as much as a sheer avoidance thing. This, despite the fact the the project, while being a fair amount of work, was still enjoyable work.
The weird thing is that I don't have this problem in my work life. I work at home and my boss trusts me to do my job. And I do. I coordinate my projects and prioritize them with minimal difficulty. But in my personal life, it's as if I just don't have the discipline to buckle down and do what I should.
I can't even blame it on depression. The meds are working well enough that I feel pretty good most of the time. Except, of course, for feeling guilty because of all the things I should be doing and and am not doing. I hate that feeling, so why don't I avoid it by doing what I ought to?
I dunno.
